Why do I have to be everyone's fixer?

Hey there,

For everyone who doesn't care about my personal life and is just here for the pictures, this post is not for you. This is just going to be a little outlet for my feelings and emotions, and if you don't want to read that, stop now.

For those who don't mind reading this, here we go.

In the past couple weeks I've felt like I have to fix everyone around me. Two of my friends as well as my sister aren't going through the greatest times at the moment and I am apparently always the person they all come to.

Now, don't get me wrong, I want them to come to me and talk to me and tell me about their problems. And I would never want them to think that they are annoying me with it or that they are a burden - because they aren't. But sometimes I need a break.

I can't deal with the constant stream of sadness and depressive thoughts. The tears, the crying, the negativity. Usually I am quite the happy and positive person, I think I'm not bad at making people feel better either.

But all these dark and sad feelings pull me down too. Especially when they're coming from three people at the same time.

I don't want to tell them that though because then they will stop coming to me and will stop telling me about things. I want them to feel like they can always talk to me and that I'm here, because what they don't need at the moment is another person letting them down.

I think I just need an outlet. I need to take all their negativity and listen to their problems and then let them out somewhere else.

I feel like I need to fix everyone and that they expect me to help them, to make them feel better - and I try! I really do. But I think right now I need a little break.

I have no clue how to do that, but I guess I'll find a way.

As a good friend and sister, you sometimes have to go through other people's problems with them. 

All I need to do is find a way to stay positive and keep carrying these positive thoughts towards them.

Apologies for this rubbish,

Leoni