The day I have been waiting for for so long is finally here. I have packed up all my things and am starting this exciting journey early in the morning. I honestly thought I wouldn't have as much stuff as I do, but what can I do? A girl needs, what a girl needs (which doesn't mean that ALL the stuff I'm taking are clothes and shoes and bags, but quite a large amount of it are).
I am so incredibly thankful that I am able to live the life I have been dreaming about for years and I am also proud of myself for making all of this possible. It was quite a long and exhausting process, but I am super glad I have made it this far and cannot wait for tomorrow, when it all finally starts happening.
On the other hand, I am incredibly nervous, maybe even a bit scared. Even though I know what is awaiting me (really nice housemates, a cool house, a tiny room in said house, and uni, where I'll be studying my favourite subject at a degree level) I don't really know what's going to happen. Obviously I don't, no one ever does. And that is the scary thing about it. What if I don't get along with people? What if I don't like my course? What if I can't keep up with everyone else? What if I'm not good enough? What if the homesickness makes me want to leave?
Having all these doubts seems somehow normal though, and when you think about it, everyone probably has similar fears when it comes to moving out, leaving home and starting a new chapter in life.
Whatever is about to happen and wether or not my doubts are pointless, I am really excited and will probably not get a lot of sleep tonight.
IT IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING!
Leoni
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